Last night, i was watching the tv while surfing the net.  I wasnt really minding the tv since my back was turned away from the tv... just listening.  I was a beauty pageant ... well i told myself, ill stay tuned till it ends, im not a bit sleepy and i like to see the gowns the candidates will be wearing....

When the gown competiion came, the background song was sung by a group of female emsemble... the song was "YOU AND I"... ( you and i wil travel far together....).  I stopped my surfing and faced the tv... not for the gowns parading on screen but for the sweet romantic song on the background.  Its been a long time since i last heard that song and how it really struck me this time... i was not only singing the song, i was also thinking of what the lyrics meant to me... I told myself i have utter those words myself... but  some good things never last....  and in no time, i was crying....

I didnt mean to.. but it just happened...wierdo!

 I'd like to post the lyrics of the song.. i know it wil be a long time when ill hear this song again... or better... before the forget the tune myself...lolz!  But cant find them online...

....fortunately... i found it after 3 days... here is it...

You and I
lyrics and music by Leslie Bricusse

You and I will travel far together.
We'll pursue our little star together.
We'll be happy as we are, together.
We may never get to heaven,
But it's heaven at least to try.

You and I are going on together,
Till the time we have is gone, forever,
Watch the evening drawing on, together.
Growing closer, growing older,
Making mem'ries that light the sky
That only time can make,
That only love can make,
That only we can make, You and I.

No its not a song, its my quote of the day!

 Some people find it hard to utter the words "I am Sorry!" They need a lot of guts and persuasion.  It seems they will suffocate while saying those words..lolz! I dont have such problem. Though i hate saying those words to a person coz i means ive done something wrong or inapproriate. But apologizing is not a problem for me. I say "I am sorry" and mean it.  Unfortunately, ive met a lot of people who has not mastered that simple gesture.

 Is it pride? fear of being blamed? or is it guilt?  I dont know. I have this friend who gives peace offerings in kind instead of apologizing. Another friend needs a mediator to apologize.  I comment those people who got friends with this kind of attitude.  I am one of them... And my God! how i try to understand them.. im must have loved them so much to stay being friends with them, hehehe!  Until when, i hope till my patience can endure.

 I AM SORRY ---  three simple words, but will do wonders in a relationship just as I LOVE YOU  has magic in them.

WAITING

waiting... who has the most patience to wait..i guess im one of them...

a. waited for answers to my prayers...

b. waited for someone to call or to be online

c. waited for people to realize their mistakes and make-up for such mistakes too...

d. waited for a few people whos presence completes my day.. ( u know who u are...)

e. waited for my due dates... not to mention a lot of my bills...

f. of course i have waited in line many times.. (literally!)

g. lastly but certainly not the least.. still waiting...that someday, i can say im truly happy.

Too much to say, huh!

*cherry*

just this week... an old friend removed her masked.  I was completely caught off guard.. very much suprised of her what was under the beautiful face...

How can people hide thier true selves from a close friend of almost 2 yrs.  Is she just acting all along? is she just playing saint just to be close to me and later hurt me like this...

I dont know.. but, ive learned something new.... sometimes kindndess is not the measure of a real friend... its the kind of respect he or she shows to you in a particulat situation... everyone can  be kind if one wanted too.. but to show respect in circumstances when one is pushed to the wall is called breeding... i guess my friend was kind but she has no breeding at all.

Sayang...

hello.. it has been a long while... the past 2 months was indeed a test of my patience and sanity... when it rains it pours and now i truly believe that.

I have been left alone in the rain...too many questions and no answers... but i did not complain... i said to myself, why should i pursue on something that i have no control of... i let go....

But then the other mind bugling scenario came my way and this really blew my head off.. its that i cant help to think, that i was just been put into the extremes... the first one was of self pity and frustration and now this time around...of awe and sheer fantasy.... its unbelievable really...

I know im talking in riddles here... i wish i can share everything on line.. but one this is for sure... i did not plan this or put myself deliberately in this position...There is a Higher Being  who looks over us.. He knows our needs and if we BELIEVE.. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE...

GOD IS TRULY GOOD....

low tides of our lifes... they come because they are expected to come...low tides are our problems, our insecurities, our indecisiveness that is part of being human. We cant be happy all the time...our low tides remind us that we are still under the mercy on one Great Being that predetermines our destiny even before we are born...God alone knows what is beneficial to us...sometimes we feel He has abandoned us but in the long run such feeling of abandonment is replaced by the realization that such misfortune that befall us made us stronger to face problems and even the accolades of success.... God is truly good... good beyond the comprehend of his creatures.

So why this blog? Ive been in a wierd feeling of lost and confusion lately... i didnt do anything to make it better.. i just prayed and cried... and u know what... it solved itself... i cant really explain my renewed feeling of hope and trust knowing things will be alright... God worked his way to my heart again.

Im not a very religious person, but i truly believe there is a God... and i suggest u do believe too...

"when i was young and Christmas tress were tall...." thats the first line of the song "First of May" by the Beegees... reminds me of long ago also...

what about? its summer... so hot summer... It isnt this hot when i was young!!!

We are now experiencing the effects of depletion of the ozone layer... the heat now is 200% more than 30 yrs ago.. that not a joke...!!!!

when going to the beach or resort to cool down... one must be careful of excessive sunburn... the sun's rays are so strong u can feel ur skin roasting up...hehehehehe.. That why... this summer i didnt go to swim.. i love my skin more...hehehehehe!

do you watch The American Idol? well i do... i love music and singing... we filipinos ang natural born music lovers... the last episode with the final 8 contestants singing the songs made popular on the year they were born was a blast! For me its the best episode ever in the AI series...

The last singer was Constantine Maroulis.. i love his over-all aura.. he has talent and great looks to compliment it... He sang Bohemian Rhapsody of the Queen and he made it sound like his own song... his voice did not falter a bit with the change of tempo and dynamics...

I know he is the frontrunner in the voting that week (some weeks b4!) and i hope that he goes all the way the finals and win the American Idol...

Im saddened with the demise of JPII... i remembered i was in my sophomore yr. in college in UST (1981)when visited our University.... I was able to see him, he road on a float and i swear he looked at me when he passed by... I felt so happy and almost cried. As a Catholic, he is Jesus here on earth... he is the next best thing to Jesus at least...

It was a wonderful experience seeing the Pope... and even within my school grounds... Tbe next time he was here (1995), i wasnt able to see him personally.. but i was glued on my television.. well i still have the same joy of seeing him in my own turf.. The Philippines, the only predominately Catholic country in Asia... It makes me proud and so much bless.

John Paul II.. we love you... i remembered that was the cheer of the youthn then... yeah I love you too.. May u rest in Peace on the Bosom of the Lord.

After a long rest my son is back to school mainly to practice his graduation rites... Cate graduated last March 18... i still went up the stage to give her a medal... she not quite satisfied with it, but there are some things more important than a medal.. which is honesty and integrity... well i dont need to elaborate.... :-)

Holy Week was boring... we stayed home.. how i miss the times we go out of town!

Finally congrats to my daughter Cate... she has fixed her pending papers at UP and shes admitted to BA Comm. Research at UP Diliman... i say thats more than a medal she missed at the graduation.. nadaig pa niya ang mga honor students (kuno!).

I dreamt of my late hubby this morning... as usual he was smiling back at me... as if he was just here with me... maybe he is here with me... i just cant see him... i know he is making me smile too...